Broken Record

I'm not sure where I last left it but I know I've said a few times that I'm done with meetings, but darnit, they really do help me when I let them.

Last week was my first week back in maybe 4 weeks? 6? Honestly, it'd been just as long since I'd tracked seriously. I'm pretty sure I took the summer off from losing weight, folks. And boy was it evident at my 1st weigh in.

+8 pounds

Wow. Yes, you read that right. I'd gone out and bought size 10s and size mediums and lets just say things were getting snug. I fully committed to get back on track for good and for. the. love. finally reach my goal. I was close to 20 pounds away but my gain put me closer to 30 pounds away. Ouch.

So, I commited to the program and am working on getting back into it physically and mentally.

2nd weigh in: -6.6 pounds

That's more like it! Granted, it came off so fast cause I put it on so fast. And I'm still not quite to my lowest yet, but reallyclose.

I really feel like I'm committed this time. I finally want to shed these last 20 pounds! I will have lost 126 pounds total at that point and it's such a real possibility, I just want to make it happen already.

5 miles: part duex

Today, for the 2nd week in a row, I ran 5 miles. The outcomes of both runs were very different and I really have no idea why?

Last week I ran the first 3/4 without too much of a problem but I started feeling very tired with a little over a mile left. I didn't even know if my legs would be able to move me one more step towards the end of my run.

This week I felt great for almost the entire run and think I even sped up towards the end. Nothing much changed in regards to what I ate and drank beforehand. I left at approximately the same time too.

I did notice my pace was a little bit slower this week so that may have preserved my energy? Or it could  be mostly mental? Let me explain...

I told myself during my run today that since I've already ran 5 miles before that I could definitely do it again today. Perhaps I am lacking confidence on the first day I attempt a longer run?

Either way, I did it and I felt great. Getting  up there in my training miles and I can't decide if I'm nervous or excited to run the full 13.1.

-100 pounds GONE

I'm officially back in the saddle. For the 2nd week in a row I've lost weight so whatever mental hurdle was holding me back, I have finally jumped over it.

I'm down exactly 2 pounds this week which is right on target with my expectations so I'm pleased. I'm definitely feeling good in my own skin again and for the first time in a really long time I think I am looking forward to summer.

I don't know if I mentioned it but I actually bought a pair of shorts (gasp!) and I actually wore them out in public (double gasp!) In case you didn't know I haven't wore shorts out of the house since jr. high school, so it was pretty much a big deal.

ALSO like the title implies I've officially lost 100 pounds since Feb 2009. Feels amazing. I cried when I saw the number on the scale. I've come a long way and mostly I'm in shock.

I know you are all hanging on the edge of your seat but I did say I would post my actual numbers when I get to my 1st goal weight, which is in 6 more pounds. Stay tuned!

-posted from my phone, please excuse typos!

Sunday Ramblings

As I weighed in this past Friday I happened to overhear a conversation between the leader and another member. The same member that I had just introduced myself to a couple weeks prior. She seems really nice and she has a baby a couple of months younger than mine.

Their conversation went like this:

Leader: Congratulations!

Member: Ok

Leader: You're down 2 pounds!

Member: Oh, that's all?

Leader: That's all? Yes, 2 pounds is excellent!

Member: Well, I'd be disappointed if it was less than 2 pounds.

Now, mind you, at the same time all if this was happening I was weighing in simultaneously. Here's how my conversation went:

Leader 2: Please step on the scale.

Me: *silence*

Leader: Ok.

Me: *silence*

Leader: You're down .6 this week.

Me: Great! I'll take it.

Leader: *silence*

Me: I am nursing and have started increasing solids lately so I'm trying to find the right balance of points.

Leader: Do you have our nursing mothers pamphlet?

Me: Oh yes, thank you.

Now, it's at this point that the member/mom turns to me and says "I just introduced solid too! Now I'm only eating 7 extra points a day."

I said "I'm still eating the full 14, trying to keep eating 14 as long as I keep losing weight."

Why am I telling you all this?

It's interesting how our minds and bodies are so different. This nursing mother was disappointed with -2 pounds and I was estatic with -.6 pounds.

I notice my daughter gets frustrated while nursing if I don't eat enough so I've chosen to not decrease my points yet so long as I'm still losing. Albeit slowly.

This other mom must have no problems at all with decreasing her points and still nursing a non frustrated baby.

So, yes. I lost .6 pounds and I was perfectly happy with that. The fastest person will win the race but the slow and steady runner will cross the finish line eventually. I totally just made that up. :o)

Good luck with the Super Bowl snacking ya'll!

20/35

Extra Points. In Weight Watchers you get your calculated daily points that is specific to each person but then EVERYONE gets the same 35 extra points a week.

Myself? I rarely dip into these, having 1 or 2 here or there, usually using about 5 or so a week.

This past week? I used 20. I thought for sure I had gained and I was ok with that. I didn't go over board but I was less strict with myself. I felt less structured and less in control of myself though.

I ended up losing 1.2 pounds. So, I guess those extra points are there for a reason. I guess if you eat all the extra points every week you would just maintain?

I will never eat them all but I'm certainly going to allow myself some from now on. Will slow down my weight loss, I think.

And of course, just when I figure this out... now they are changing the program up in 2 weeks. Stay tuned...