Confessions...

I have had a bad few days so I guess you can consider this blog post a confession of sorts. I have been really hungry for about 5 days now and I don't know why? I am tracking my calories on Nutridiary and from what I can tell I have been getting at least 1,200 calories a day and even 1,600 on Sunday!! *gasp* Thankfully, I think last night was my breaking point but I still feel guilty.

Tuesday night: According to my calculations I was already at 1,150 calories by dinner time so I skipped dinner. I went to the gym and came home to curl up with a new book I got in the mail to kill time until Biggest Loser started at 8:00. Well, by 7:30 my stomach was pleading for food and I tried telling it to shut up because it was too late in the day to eat. I felt myself get up off the couch and shuffle into the kitchen, I figured "if it's healthy it doesn't matter too much?". I went for a pear in the fruit drawer and just when I was about to take it out I spotted the "100 calorie sugar-free Jello" container. I was craving something sweet, and that did the trick... for a minute. I quickly downed about 6 ounces a water, crap that didn't help much, back to the kitchen. I grabbed a 70 calorie rice crispy treat that I had received in my Easter basket. SUGAR galore but 70 calories right? (insert: sobbing). Biggest Loser was starting in about 2 minutes and darn it I didn't know if I was hungry anymore or just wanted something to do with my hands!? 3rd trip to the kitchen and I heated up a 100 calorie pack of microwave popcorn. While eating my popcorn I downed approximately 24 more ounces of water and finally no more trips to the kitchen. So, my grand total was 270 calories between 7:30 and 8:15 pm... OH THE GUILT!

I go to my bi-weekly doctor's appointment tomorrow for a weigh in so I will have the official results tomorrow night, but I felt the overwhelming urge to weight myself this morning and the guilt was eating me away. I figured I had gained at least 5 pounds over the past week and to my complete surprise I had lost 2! So my unofficial weight loss in the past 2 weeks is -6! This does not make 3 trips to the kitchen at 8:00 at night OK by any means but it reminds me that my metabolism is changing and while 1,200 calories a day is a good number to shoot for it's not the end of the world if I go over occasionally because I am working out 6 (6!!) days a week now.

A friend posted this link today and although I could have used it last night, I will refer back to it when I feel tempted in the future:

http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/2006/11/50-things-to-do-instead-of-snacking.html


50 Things to do instead of snacking

1. Imagine the new healthier you
2. Walk around the block
3. Call a friend
4. Make a list of your Top Ten Reasons to Lose Weight
5. Make a To Do list
6. Turn on music and dance
7. Jot a thank you note to someone
8. Go to bed early or take a nap
9. Read a book
10. Blog or journal
11. Give yourself a manicure or pedicure
12. Plan a healthy meal for your family
13. Surf the Internet
14. Finish an unfinished project
15. Walk your dog, pet your cat, feed your fish
16. Brush your teeth
17. Balance your checkbook
18. Say a prayer
19. Chop veggies to keep on hand
20. Give a massage
21. Clean out a junk drawer
22. Play a game with your kids
23. Try a new route on your walk
24. Drink a glass of water
25. Kiss someone
26. Try on some of your clothes
27. Look at old pictures
28. Rent a video
29. Wash your car
30. Take a hot, soothing bath
31. Update your calendar
32. Work in your yard
33. Start your holiday shopping list
34. Count your blessings
35. Write a letter
36. Fold some laundry
37. Check your e-mail
38. Give your dog a bath
39. Send a birthday card
40. Meditate
41. Hug someone
42. Rearrange some furniture
43. Light a fire or some candles
44. Put your pictures in an album
45. Plan a trip (real or imaginary)
46. Straighten a closet
47. Clean out a files
48. Visit a friend
49. Clean out your trunk
50. Do something nice for someone